back to my eastertiMe dinner w/ mar von janko ::: >>>
we are eating our dinners talking doing some general discourse
& such when suddenly i guess i mention
the wrong thing :
i ask him 'have you heard from Elena at alL?' & he
responds w/ silence & a strange upperbody tension he chews
a little bit faster [ & mar is a very slow eater more of a
culinary conversationalist at heart ] & his arMs pull in closer to
his torso w/ his fork gripped a little more convoluted ::: he breathes
in a strange sigh inhalatioN & then the air slowly comes
out of hiM its as if i can see him deflate before my veRy eyes
:
i can understand why i guess Elena was the love of his life
they were together for 7 years & then Elena decided to move to swedeN
to work in a little used bookshop go to university read
a bit just get away in generaL : as much as this had caused great
pain for the both of them both Elena & mar knew this was for
the best & they parted on friendly terms [ occasionally mar would
fly out to stolkhom & they would sleep together again in her apartment
studio veRy coZy very happily & w/ a casual acceptance
of life's little ride ( no pun intended here ) ] ::: >>>
anyhow i guess come to find out that mar recently
found out that Elena will marry sooN & that these casual sleepovers
will be nommore :
so i can understand my poor friends silence at this innocent question
posed across the dinnertable :
but anyhow ::: the more we talked & ate together the more i realized
how truly different we are : we are stilL great friends but sometiMes
i forget how we met or why we sometiMes still get together i mean
he is a rather strange person if i examine it : but we are
friends no? ::: >>> & part of the friendship is to
experience & share these differences to almost blindly accept
these idiosyncratic juxtapositions in the relationship : & we do so
w/o even thinking on it you know? : its like the 'you say tomato
i say tomato' thing i guess except of course
you don't really call the whole thing off ::: >>>
so : my favourite time of course is coffeetiMe i get entirely
too coffee thirsty at tiMes & am always too eager to put a hot cup
to lip to sip & relax while simultaneously wiring up : i cleared the
table a bit simply leaving the salt & pepper put the
coffee on & we moved out & over to the livingrooM area
w/ the television set & my computer on desk [ & the HT ]
after i heard the beeping indication that 'coffee's done' i got up to
go to the kitchen agaiN & saw the suN streaming in upon the kitchentable
top long shadows thru & pass the salt & pepper shakers
a true symbollic suggestion from the cosmos a metaphor for
janko & i [ i assuMe of course that most people would think of me
as the peppershaker ] ::: >>>
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